why i write

do not trust this little girl
I’ve been doing a heckuva lot of reading lately, and I don’t mean the fun kind. I mean the informational kind. The kind of which I’ve never been a huge fan. It’s the only kind of reading that can actually make me sleepy. I love make believe (or at most history that’s as good as make believe). Anyway, all of this reading has me wondering how I ended up the way I did, with this fierce love of all things not real. I’m a drama queen actress by nature and a storyteller by nurture… All this thinking led me back, as most things do, to my childhood.
I was reminded at a family dinner recently of one of my weirder escapades (and there were many weird ones). I don’t remember how old I was, but I was most likely the same age as in the pic to the left when a new girl moved onto our street. She was about my age, so this was cause for serious excitement. I immediately went out on my bike (that had a string for the door so it was easier to pretend I was actually sitting in a car) to meet her. And I had a plan. I was going to introduce myself as Jessica and talk about my twin sister, Jennifer. She was pretty well on board with it until I went to go get my twin and she came out without me…in different clothes of course. Unfortunately the girl wasn’t as big a fool as I’d hoped (even though I’d roped a sibling or two into the ruse) and my act didn’t last long. Next came the uncomfortable scene when I had to explain why I did such a weird thing. It was not the kind of opening that leads to a great and lasting friendship.
So I’ve never been content with life as it is…too much reading has ruined it for me I think. But that’s okay, ’cause even if I can only live out my big dreams in my head they can eventually end up on paper and that would make them real to me. And if someone else gets a kick out of my stories too, then that’s just icing on the cake.
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July 17th, 2009 at 8:45 am
I have always liked both Jessica and Jennifer. New girl was dumb and was just jealous that she didn’t have a twin.
July 17th, 2009 at 8:51 am
Uh…Heather….I, uh have something to confess….